when i was growing up, i would occasionally overhear the words 'there is no such thing as unconditional love', in the conversations of my elders, throughout the years.
today, i told someone that i loved them. i have often said these words, to many people, in many ways. and today, i meant them.
but today, in return, they lied.
today, i told someone that i hated them. i have never in my life said these words, to anyone, in any way. and today, i meant them.
and today, in return, a glorious silence.
all this to say, there is no such thing as unconditional love. as evidenced today.
and today, in return, i am going to be alone forever. because there is no such thing as unconditional love. and that is the one thing my crippled heart needs.